This disease called Avascular Necrosis is a terrible one especially when your dealing with multifocal avn.
I am grateful to only have it in one joint
All chronic conditions that change our life and lifestyle suck and if we're not careful depression could easily take over and we lose sight of the beautiful spiritual being we are on this human journey called life.
I understand it can be depressing, being on a fixed income blows, I understand you may not be able to do the same things as before but your still the kind loving person you always were.
Don't let the pain consume your every thought.
Don't ever doubt that you have a purpose we all have a purpose in life and sometimes it will change somehow we are going through this for a reason. I'm not sure what that reason is but we were all put on this path for something.
Maybe we are going through this instead of dealing with something worse.
Do you like to write? draw? paint? poetry? craft?
I personally love photography
Are you able to still drive?
What is the one thing that could help make your life easier?
I always think of this quote when I am sad in pain and missing my old "normal " life.
Now I have a new normal
“As long as you make an identity for yourself out of pain, you cannot be free of it.”
Eckhart Tolle
Up until the past year , I also often felt betrayed by my body. It was always breaking down, leaving me frustrated and pissed off.
No one else around me seemed to have as many problems.
Each moment we are in chronic pain or dealing with illness, we can choose our attitude toward it. I know pain is a bitch and it sucks and we can't do the things we used to. But maybe we have to focus on the things we can do and celebrate small victories vs beating ourselves up for things we are unable to do.
So I wanted to share a few small tips I’ve learned along the way
1. Do what you can.
Focusing on all the ways you are limited brings on a case of the “poor me’s” lickety split. “Poor-me-land” is the most unfun place ever so get outta there as quick as you can and hop on the gratitude train.
Seriously. Focusing on what you can do gives you more inner peace, keeps you grounded, and inspires you to take action.
2. Don’t do what you can’t.
Being a martyr and pushing yourself to try to appear less weak to yourself or others is a recipe for disaster. So don’t try to be a hero. If it hurts or it will hurt, and you hear yourself saying, “I should” or “Screw it, I’m doing it anyway” that means your inner critic has barged in and is running the show.
The best way I’ve learned to deal with mine is to banish to a sofa.
As weird as this may sound, it’s my way of calming down.
Then I have the grace to give myself a break.
3. Stop trying to heal.
I know it sounds weird, but hear me out. The idea of “healing” brings to my mind someone who is sick, broken, less than good enough.
What if instead of trying to heal yourself, ask yourself if you treat your body with absolute kindness?
What would that look like?
Of course you may still need to see health practitioners, but your intention shifts from getting someone to fix what is broken, to the ultimate in self-nurturing.
4. Meditate.
I don’t think there is a person alive who couldn’t benefit from meditation.This is really true for anyone experiencing chronic pain.
If you are unsure how message me.
5. Invest as much as you can in your health.
Eat as well as you can afford.
Get enough sleep
Rest when your body needs rest. You must laugh at least once a day. See your doctor and take your meds as directed.
6. Nourish yourself.
When I feel like crap or am in pain it’s so easy to eat sugary foods or chips to comfort myself and it's quick. Who wants to cook when your in pain
But it always backfires because I end up feeling empty and drained after the rushing sugar or carb high. When I choose food that I know my body will love me for, it helps me by putting more energy into healing itself. I feel more alive when I eat healthy.
7. Find pleasure.
Illness is a drag, no doubt about it. But humor and pleasure are incredibly healing. Surround yourself with as much pleasure as you can. It doesn’t have to be grandiose or expensive.
Simple pleasures every day can help alleviate suffering, whether it’s watching a comedy, crocheting, painting,using your favorite tea cup, being in nature, reading a good novel or listening to your favorite cd.
Whatever works for you.
Write a list of your favorite things, because sometimes we forget in the moment, and reminding ourselves of the fun stuff helps us do a 180 toward joy.
We have to every single day get up tell ourself how wonderful we are compliment your kids.
Celebrating the small things we can do will help us take our mind of what we can't do.
Your life style may have changed but your still a beautiful spiritual being on a human journey.
We cannot lose sight of how great we are pain or no pain.
Good Comedians to laugh at
Ralph May.
Katt Williams
Jay Larson
Ali Wong
Ellen De generous
Janeane Garofalo
Relaxation and meditation sounds
You
https://youtu.be/luRkeDCoxZ4
I may have days may pain takes over and my plans have to change.
But I am grateful for I was allowed another day to start again and appreciate my family and friends 
Joint Purpose 