Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?

Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?

Reflections: Would I Rewind My Youth?

If I could turn back the clock, I’d love to relive my teen years. I often wonder what life might have been like if I had gone to college earlier, instead of jumping straight into work, hanging out with friends, and starting a marriage at a young age.

Looking back, I’d still have my daughter—she’s was blessing from God.

But I might not have married my first husband. Our relationship was troubled and, frankly, very harmful. The abuse left scars that took many years to heal, and I often wish I had had the strength and clarity to make different choices back then. But I was abused mentally,physically and financially I didn’t have the strength at that time. As I was a shell of who I was.

My daughter lived at my parents home to keep her safe. I don’t regret that but I do regret not having the ability to get out of a bad marriage sooner.

Every time I tried I still got abused even worse than when I was there.

Sometimes, I imagine a different path—one where I pursued my passions, built my confidence, and embraced my independence sooner. I wonder how different my journey might have been and what challenges I might have avoided.

Though I can’t change the past, reflecting on it helps me appreciate how far I’ve come. It’s a reminder to cherish the growth, resilience, and strength I’ve gained along the way. And perhaps, it’s an encouragement for others to consider their own journeys and the importance of making choices that support their well-being.

Life is a series of lessons, and though I’d love to relive my teen years differently, I’m grateful for every experience that has shaped me into who I am today.

And I am blessed with a great 2nd husband and I love my family.

And I am glad I survived.